Finale
This shall my last entry at this blog. I see no reason why I should keep it open and public when the greater world out there maintain "secretive" private blogs elsewhere (open to "invitied" readers only). I am shutting it down for good. Read the silence.
Thank You for your unfailing support, those who are still reading my blog. I started blogging as a happy soul but left it a dejected one. I need a shell where I can hide into, away from human traffic and undue relationships. It is too tiring an ordeal to handle them. I wonder how loneliness is a misery when personal bonds can be so fragile and superficial, threatening to break at every instant of difficulty and chagrin. I am my own littoral. I renounce love. I just want to be left alone in my pile of books. Here I am translating this into action. I marvel at my own determination!
I am now skeptical of all things nice and kind. I would ask if there is any ulterior motive behind a show of humility. This is wrong but I have turned into a recalcitrant kid. I display animosity not only towards social institutions but at everything else as well. Nonetheless I still see hope in the future, hope in the society, and hope in myself.
My youthful days in Taiwan will forever be etched in my memory.
http://wjacky.wordpress.com/
Friday, October 16, 2009
Again, I'm somewhere in Asia, where I belong.Saturday, October 10, 2009
Closing down this blog......
because it has now become nothing but a personal diary, one that documents my travels, especially those in Taiwan. If I can abstain from blogging and keep my itchy fingers from clicking onto blogspot for more than a week, I will "close" it down by making it password-protected for the Taiwan posts and delete all other entries. This is my first step to leading a life of seclusion, before I deactivate my MSN account (heard that it has been hacked into and spammed) and the most-hated facebook one as well.
Happy birthday, my fair Republic! If not for you I would still be wearing a pigtail!
because it has now become nothing but a personal diary, one that documents my travels, especially those in Taiwan. If I can abstain from blogging and keep my itchy fingers from clicking onto blogspot for more than a week, I will "close" it down by making it password-protected for the Taiwan posts and delete all other entries. This is my first step to leading a life of seclusion, before I deactivate my MSN account (heard that it has been hacked into and spammed) and the most-hated facebook one as well.
Happy birthday, my fair Republic! If not for you I would still be wearing a pigtail!
OMG! Freaks!
No wonder I have been feeling so poor recently. The airmails of books keep pouring in, and my savings reserves keep flowing out. I have made too many online purchases of books. I don't mean to contribute to American finances in this manner, but apparently I have been doing so. So much for being a book collector.
No wonder I have been feeling so poor recently. The airmails of books keep pouring in, and my savings reserves keep flowing out. I have made too many online purchases of books. I don't mean to contribute to American finances in this manner, but apparently I have been doing so. So much for being a book collector.
Thursday, October 08, 2009
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
人间有余温
I have to blog about this:
Having done some business at the washroom, I left a library book at one of the cubicles and only realized it after an hour. I returned to the washroom and found nothing there. Just when I thought that all hopes were lost in recovering it, I saw on my library records that it had been returned! (I would have done that too, like if I find a book at a toilet cubicle I would take the book and dump it into the bin located outside the library) Thanks, whoever you are!
I have to blog about this:
Having done some business at the washroom, I left a library book at one of the cubicles and only realized it after an hour. I returned to the washroom and found nothing there. Just when I thought that all hopes were lost in recovering it, I saw on my library records that it had been returned! (I would have done that too, like if I find a book at a toilet cubicle I would take the book and dump it into the bin located outside the library) Thanks, whoever you are!
Days of my life
Every morning, I would wake up to my dosage of vintage SBC dramas on TV.
This would be followed by a radio one and my favourite was好好过一生. I just love FM95.8. It is really informative and interesting.
And I particularly love Fridays. My favourite shows of黄金年华之光辉岁月and斗歌竞艺are aired on that day. Oh, and I love to watch 意难忘and爱. I have caught more than 700 episodes of the former. I hope they would both hit a thousand each in time to come. I used to watch阿诚, 台湾霹雳火, and世间路too in the past.
Why wait till retirement when I can do all these things now?
Every morning, I would wake up to my dosage of vintage SBC dramas on TV.
This would be followed by a radio one and my favourite was好好过一生. I just love FM95.8. It is really informative and interesting.
And I particularly love Fridays. My favourite shows of黄金年华之光辉岁月and斗歌竞艺are aired on that day. Oh, and I love to watch 意难忘and爱. I have caught more than 700 episodes of the former. I hope they would both hit a thousand each in time to come. I used to watch阿诚, 台湾霹雳火, and世间路too in the past.
Why wait till retirement when I can do all these things now?
Sunday, October 04, 2009
Reflections on blogging
This is a blog first dedicated to Taiwan and then to my ramblings. Given the grim outlook and pessimistic view towards life this blog seems to show, I expect its readership to drop to a tittle, and I would see it in its newfound purpose of an online diary. This blog now allows me to reminisce about both Taiwan and my youth, and serves as a testament to how social realities and interpersonal failures have changed me. Academia and perhaps the teaching profession are my solace. I have no other pinings in life except for short trips and travels to places which I love, most notably Taiwan. Oh, plus the completion of my dissertation before time runs out.
This is a blog first dedicated to Taiwan and then to my ramblings. Given the grim outlook and pessimistic view towards life this blog seems to show, I expect its readership to drop to a tittle, and I would see it in its newfound purpose of an online diary. This blog now allows me to reminisce about both Taiwan and my youth, and serves as a testament to how social realities and interpersonal failures have changed me. Academia and perhaps the teaching profession are my solace. I have no other pinings in life except for short trips and travels to places which I love, most notably Taiwan. Oh, plus the completion of my dissertation before time runs out.
Saturday, October 03, 2009
Where does my heart lie?
Everyone has a dream place in mind. A space to be in if given a choice. Life commitments force us to compromise on it, and before we know it, as we look back in life, we have missed the best moments to be at that place, during our youthful days. Retirement in style is a bad consolation, and one question lingers and bugs: what was my work all about? What for? Hence the saying: Man is born free but everywhere he is in chains. Here comes the biggest tragedy: we have become our own prisoners.
Everyone has a dream place in mind. A space to be in if given a choice. Life commitments force us to compromise on it, and before we know it, as we look back in life, we have missed the best moments to be at that place, during our youthful days. Retirement in style is a bad consolation, and one question lingers and bugs: what was my work all about? What for? Hence the saying: Man is born free but everywhere he is in chains. Here comes the biggest tragedy: we have become our own prisoners.
Thursday, October 01, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
Speechless
Dumb blondes and bimbos.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lj3iNxZ8Dww
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AT2XeT21wEc
They should furnish their homes with maps.
Dumb blondes and bimbos.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lj3iNxZ8Dww
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AT2XeT21wEc
They should furnish their homes with maps.
What a disgrace
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9HmLApZv9aA&feature=related
I learnt many things from this video.
I didn't know that there is a discipline called "Steel". I must have wasted a good number of years in academia.
And I realize that when people say "You know", they don't really know what they are talking about and let alone their audience.
Plus the "Booms" lingo. What's that gonna mean? I have been shocked "loud" and hard as much as the gal is.
South Africa is the most developed nation in Africa by most indexes. It is different from Kenya or Uganda where you can live your safari dream. Stop exoticizing Africa.
Speaking of our ambassador. Sigh.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9HmLApZv9aA&feature=related
I learnt many things from this video.
I didn't know that there is a discipline called "Steel". I must have wasted a good number of years in academia.
And I realize that when people say "You know", they don't really know what they are talking about and let alone their audience.
Plus the "Booms" lingo. What's that gonna mean? I have been shocked "loud" and hard as much as the gal is.
South Africa is the most developed nation in Africa by most indexes. It is different from Kenya or Uganda where you can live your safari dream. Stop exoticizing Africa.
Speaking of our ambassador. Sigh.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Life is......
a pack of wolves and lies. I think many people had lied to me before. The only way I can regain my youth is to retain my sanity by not taking in any more lies. In practice I need to realize my goal to become a hermit in the concrete jungle while exploring all possible avenues to escape from it.
Wacky Jacky in social withdrawal mode. Reactivation in process.
a pack of wolves and lies. I think many people had lied to me before. The only way I can regain my youth is to retain my sanity by not taking in any more lies. In practice I need to realize my goal to become a hermit in the concrete jungle while exploring all possible avenues to escape from it.
Wacky Jacky in social withdrawal mode. Reactivation in process.
I hate Facebook
Facebook sucks. It infringes privacy.
And I agree with what some of my friends have observed: if you are really close to the person, you won't drop meaningless comments like "See you soon!" or "See you again!" when you know fully well that the chances of meeting up on mutual consensus are virtually zero unless one decides on an effort to do so. Freaking dumb and superficial. I would rather call or text the person up. Everyone knows how much I love fine conversations over fine meals.
The lack of time is to me an excuse. If you don't have time (to meet up that is), a ghost must have been let loose during the 7th month to do all the tagboards, play all the online games, write all the wall messages, or join all the facebook groups on your behalf.
Jack Neo asks, "Where got ghost?" Facebook lor.
Perhaps I am getting too old for all these. Sigh. If not for the convenience of photo-sharing with my overseas friends, I would have deactivated my account a long time ago.
Happy birthday, Jacky Wu! Sorry to sound mad on this day!
Facebook sucks. It infringes privacy.
And I agree with what some of my friends have observed: if you are really close to the person, you won't drop meaningless comments like "See you soon!" or "See you again!" when you know fully well that the chances of meeting up on mutual consensus are virtually zero unless one decides on an effort to do so. Freaking dumb and superficial. I would rather call or text the person up. Everyone knows how much I love fine conversations over fine meals.
The lack of time is to me an excuse. If you don't have time (to meet up that is), a ghost must have been let loose during the 7th month to do all the tagboards, play all the online games, write all the wall messages, or join all the facebook groups on your behalf.
Jack Neo asks, "Where got ghost?" Facebook lor.
Perhaps I am getting too old for all these. Sigh. If not for the convenience of photo-sharing with my overseas friends, I would have deactivated my account a long time ago.
Happy birthday, Jacky Wu! Sorry to sound mad on this day!
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Think
It doesn't take much to realize that the world isn't perfect at all. Not even rosy to begin with. And we can't seem to change it for the better. For millennia we have been experimenting with faith, knowledge, religion, relationships, and other institutions to cure ourselves and the world at large, and all attempts have failed.
We don't have to think much, or think deeply. Just think.
Cynicism is the accusation of the ignorant. The failure to think, let alone critically, has deprived them of the power to acquire the harsh truth out there. Ills of the world have become so internalized and institutionalized that many of us are oblivious of them.
I need to be insulate myself before my senses are tainted and rendered numb. I just want to feel again, lifting my spirits and flying them up high. Not at the expense of giving myself false hopes and painting naive pictures in my mind though.
It doesn't take much to realize that the world isn't perfect at all. Not even rosy to begin with. And we can't seem to change it for the better. For millennia we have been experimenting with faith, knowledge, religion, relationships, and other institutions to cure ourselves and the world at large, and all attempts have failed.
We don't have to think much, or think deeply. Just think.
Cynicism is the accusation of the ignorant. The failure to think, let alone critically, has deprived them of the power to acquire the harsh truth out there. Ills of the world have become so internalized and institutionalized that many of us are oblivious of them.
I need to be insulate myself before my senses are tainted and rendered numb. I just want to feel again, lifting my spirits and flying them up high. Not at the expense of giving myself false hopes and painting naive pictures in my mind though.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Todai Library (and canteen)
Notice the lady and the gentleman in the foreground. They were Taiwanese before becoming Japanese citizens for good (although I won't surrender it if I were them!). Spoke to them for more than an hour. Talked about Taiwan, Japan, and just about anything under the sun. Nice interacting with strangers in foreign lands. Good that I have been making friends elsewhere since I am losing many here.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
OMG
I was reminiscing about Taiwan and read some of my own blog entries written in 2006. Guess what: I realize how much I have aged! I look older and haggard now. Plus I am not as jovial and cheerful as before. Taiwan has held my teenage and childhood hostage!
I am beyond redemption.
Let me wallow in self-pity.
I was reminiscing about Taiwan and read some of my own blog entries written in 2006. Guess what: I realize how much I have aged! I look older and haggard now. Plus I am not as jovial and cheerful as before. Taiwan has held my teenage and childhood hostage!
I am beyond redemption.
Let me wallow in self-pity.
Saw it in one of my NUS emails.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
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