Hope

Many friends are getting married. Sometimes they would ask when it will be my turn. I usually smile and make no reply.

When you have hope, you have love. I am hopelessly pessimistic of human nature. This is not selective pessimism because I regard myself as just another freaking human being. Having lost faith in my own nature, what more can I ask for? I hereby declare an informal/unofficial vow of celibracy. People say that even if we make mistakes along the way, it is better than never having tried to love and be loved. While it may be true that life always gives us the opportunity to start over after we have learnt from our mistakes, I would rather spend more time hitting the books and travelling ALONE than to engage in experiments that may result in sorrow or misery from the mistakes made. Kudos to my newfound mission in life: don't start anything dumb at all. Life is too precious for that.